Today I found this private post on my business page from 3 years ago that talked about my fitness journey. Oh how miserable I was, but I was laying it all out there. Unfortunately that try didn’t stick, but I still love the words I wrote.
Take a look…do these words apply to you?
“How many moms out there run and hide from a camera? I know I do, and I’m a photographer! I should be the first one to jump in, throw my hands up and say “CHEESE!” But instead, I hide. I hide because I’m 30 years old, I’ve had 4 children and I hate the way I look. I am an invisible mom. My children range from the age of 2 to 10 and for the last five years at least, I’ve been dodging photos. They are going to look back on those years and think, “where did my mom go?” I don’t want my children to have to search for photos of me with them. I want them to look back at their childhood and remember all the times we took those selfies. I’m tired of being the invisible mom. You know how you get rid of the invisible mom syndrome? You get up and do something about it. I hope that one day, I can make these posts public so that other moms can know that you are not alone. There are many women who face the same insecurities that you do. This is the start of me documenting my journey on how to become a healthier very visible mom, and how to love yourself while doing it.
Last week, my husband left for Afghanistan so I decided that it was the perfect time to start this journey….again. Do you know how many times I’ve failed? A LOT! But I’m not giving up. I’ve been doing great this last week with walking five out of the seven nights. I haven’t had fast food or ordered out all week and I’ve drank more water this past week than I think I have in six months. This morning I started doing light lifting. I think I could have gone a little harder on it because I’m not really feeling the burn. Problem #1 to fix tomorrow, right? So before I get off here, I will leave you with my photo. I promise you, there was no altering to it….even though I would really like to liquify myself and make me look like a super model. This is 100% me. I’ll try to snap a full body photo for the next entry.
Children don’t care if you’re tall or short, fat or thin. Children only see a person who loves them and they think that their mother is beautiful all the time. Love yourself for you, love yourself for your family.”
Sorry — photo was taken off for now…it will return in a few months. 😉
Even though I’m doing so much better today than I was three years ago, these words are still the best reminder that I haven’t given up and I never will.
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